I feel disfigured
and out of proportion.
I can feel my joints ache
my teeth in my gums just shooting pain into my temples.
My eyes burn from crying so much
and they feel dried out
still more tears come.
More tears come
The light is blinding
and the smallest noises make me twitch
The fear binds me
To the memories that make me sick
I keep biting my tongue
Til my mouths soaked with blood.
But it’s not good enough